Wednesday, 15 June 2011

afternoon play

I caught the last fifteen minutes of the Afternoon Play on BBC Radio 4.

The Scattering, by Christopher Reid. He lost his wife to cancer. It is a series of poems.

Too close for comfort, yet comfortingly close. Even to the point that he was also a second partner after a divorce... I know I'm not the only one going through this and everyone is different and reacts differently.

It is bewildering and enervating. Everyone wants to help, but you don't know how to ask, or even what to ask for. It feels an age, but no time atall, as if you are in a time concertina.

You hang onto doing normal things, and even seem very busy. I wake too early, but getting going is slow. Things take longer than they should, and starting each job takes an age.

Then you look at everything that is half done or not even started...you try and haul together paperwork to fill in yet another official form.....every one complete with dire threats if you get it wrong.

All three of us are sad in our own way, yet it is infuriating when they don't just get on with sorting obvious problems....they probably are thinking the same!

8 comments:

Hawthorn said...

((hug)) I wish I could help too x Sadly it is time that is the best healer, that and patience, and I understand your analogy of a time concertina.

WOL said...

"a time concertina" -- what an evocative image!

Zhoen said...

You are in a different reality, now. Or maybe a different leg of a trouser of time. This is not the plan, so you will have to make it up as you go along from now on.

Sorry for the inconvenience.

gz said...

Z, it isn't inconvenient. It just is. The trousers of time is right.
It is a matter of calming the mind and seeing the path

Kath said...

(Hug)

herhimnbryn said...

If needful, you can hear the rest of the play on your comp. here....

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b006qrzz

Just click on the 'listen now' button.

yeractual said...

With your experience out on on the hills, I've no doubt you will find the path, when the time is right for all.

Michèle Hastings said...

it is like walking through a parallel universe... the rest of the world is moving along at their normal pace, and your world's time feels askew. that was my experience. i slowly got back in sync with the other world... but it took time and i allowed myself that time.
...and then there is that darn paperwork and the dire threats of error!