I have just had this comment...
" I have been honest in saying that I hadn't walked *all* the mountain...and circumstances prevented me doing so for the past week. It is a pity that people thought that I had no interest, not that I have been sick and grieving. It is a pity that people did not think to mention to me anything about the ponies instead of thinking that I would just drop them after three years of caring.
I was Col's woman-why else did he tell me so, why else did we do so much together, and for each other? It is a pity he kept each part of his life separate, but as you've said, that was his way.
You cannot know what he said to me and how he showed he cared, and that is private between us.
If I was just a hanger on, he would have said so, and plainly, as he did to others. We would not have discussed and planned and done so many things togetherand helped each other too.
I have the memories of three years together, talking nearly every day and being together most days too, especially the past two years. These are most precious.
I am sure of us. I trust what Col said to me. I have to move on and develop as do we all.